Vicious Cycles

As Lil's first birthday gets closer and closer my baby fever gets worse and worse. I want her to have a sibling to play with and grow up with. Her father and I have so much fun with her and I know that adding another one would just add to how amazing our family is! I also LOVE LOVE LOVE being pregnant, and I know that lil would love having a baby in house. BUT we have a few problems.

1. We are getting married/going on a honeymoon this year and I do not want to be pregnant for either of those. Not that there is anything wrong with either of those things, its just not for me.

2. We live pretty much rent free in a home that was built for us on his families land. Due to some family issues this place is not guaranteed forever. It is only a 2 bedroom, and we want to be on our own in our own house/apartment. Also the cost of living in our state is craazzyyyy! Yeah, we live in an area that is the second to darkest red...of course.

3.Michael's job does more then get us by, but we don't pay rent. So in order for us to get a 3 bedroom/our own/ bigger place, he would need a better job.

I have considered getting a job a few days a week, but daycare is so expensive that it would eat up everything I got paid and then some! It is all just such a vicious cycle!

I know that we will figure this all out, and I am going to start doing my part by not spending money on stupid things and SAVE SAVE SAVE!

I always do things that I want to do as soon as I want to do them...hence the 10 month old at age and I love being pregnant and a mommy so much that I would hate to be all done at only 21/22! But I really do think that Lil should have a sibling close to her age. Once again, another vicious cycle....